So right now I’m in this heart vs. head internal struggle about a certain situation. My head says “No way you should pursue this person because he will not help to better you in any way and you already know how flaky he is. He’s not reliable at all and he’s not going to be there for you.” Meanwhile there’s this confusion with my heart whenever he is really flirty with me. At those moments in time I feel wanted. I feel like it has the potential to go somewhere. The bottom line here is that we were not friends before we started flirting and we have horrible communication on every level. I know this and what I mean is that we can’t sit down and have a conversation. We’re just really silly and have fun. I guess that tells me that that is all he’s looking for. But I still like him. I don’t know why but I guess it has to do with a few traits that I find attractive. I don’t know whether to go with the flow and not worry about it, flirt and hope for the best, or to stop flirting all together and move on.
I just plan on going with the flow because I don’t want to rock the boat. Yet as much as I love to flirt, I don’t have time for the guessing-game and I’d like a “yes” or a “no.” My heart and head are in a dead heat right now because I know what’s best for me but I also know that it’s not a bad thing to care about someone.
Maybe I’ve simply fallen in love with the idea of love.
“You can’t start the next chapter in your life if you keep rereading the last one.”